I am but half her age. The woman so wise and worn from tribulation. I still feel like that baby girl that walked in her sleep. That girl who cried for her daddy on nights with no returned words. That girl is more than a part of me. She is the voice that pushes me to perfection. She refocuses me when I am distracted. This beautiful baby allows me to see how the world can oppress individuals when it is given the power. She humbles me. She tells me what I will have, if only I remember what I always have had. That little girl was created by a woman that is doubled in age. They share attitude, anxiety, and a BOSS mentality. They share strenghth, generousity, an intense work ethic, and perseverance. Most of all: they share love.
I am but half her age. When will I receive the life lessons? When will the wisdom pour out of my mouth and cover me from the vicious decisons I choose to make? When will I stop worrying about things that I have no control over and surrender to the written story?
I am but half her age. I am already many parts of her. The hereditary blesses have been passed down. I take each gift and build on it. I will use what I have to get where I shall be in the purest form known to man. I thank her for the gentle moments of knowledge that she poured into my world.
I am but half her age. Will I see the same trials? Will he attempt to creep in and take over my life? I know he is coming to take over my future and leave me crippled. I refuse to give in to his lustful lifestyle and praise his ignorance. I have to tell him something. I hope he hears me. The curse is broken, dear nemesis. You can't hold me down.
I am but half her age. I'm more motivated than ever before. Half her age, I grow. I pour the blessings from my annointings in their lives, the same way she does. I walk in her footsteps being a strong leader that never fails to complete her responsibilities. I stretch what I have and make it enough to complete the job.
I am but half her age. I am still that girl with vast dreams. For if dreams die, life is a broken-winged bird that cannot fly. I'll take Langston's advice and hold fast to my dreams.
Half her age, I am. Half her age, I will always be.
