Friday, June 1, 2012

Book Review #1: All God's Children Need Traveling Shoes by Maya Angelou


Going to Africa to find a deeper part of herself, Maya Angelou witnesses her soul transform into higher strength and awareness.  As a teenage parent, she raised her child by singing and acting.  She packed her son and moved with the wind with aspirations to expose him to the highest quality of life.  In Africa, Ms. Angelou holds a position in a local university to pay for her son’s education.  He begins to grow into his manhood as she, in her early thirties, experiences a desired yet unimaginable maturity. 
          Angelou meets many intellects and politicians and moves in with two other women.  Each woman is a revolutionary from America fed up with the system of oppression and discrimination.  They have experience in movements toward equality but travel abroad for the real peace and fulfillment of the mother land.
Angelou is wooed by a man of strong stature in an African tribe distant from Ghana, Maya’s primary location.  He treats Maya like a flower and ensures that she has the best of every evening that they share. After multiple interactions, he makes a proposal to Maya that will enable her to be a second wife and begin working on more children.  Though not said explicitly, the reader can imply that Angelou has desires of furthering her family, even after a fairly recent divorce.  She immediately is aware that the offer is not of her liking and humbly declines.  He persists and eventually explains his disappointment in her suspected American mentality that he assumes is keeping her from accepting his proposal.  It is determined, through her inner thinking, that though she thinks him to be an honorable, pleasant keeper, Angelou intends to live life under the side of the moon that fits her best.  The trouble was finding that place.
After Malcolm X leaves Mecca, he stops in Ghana on his way to the states.  He has a newfound peace and understanding about his position in the fight for civil rights in America.  Angelou’s colleagues arrange many events and ceremonies to honor the mobile.  She becomes disappointed when the president doesn’t agree to meet with Malcolm, and she is upset with W.E.B DuBois’ wife for not using her good relationship with the president to immediately schedule a meeting with Malcolm.  A short before Malcolm leaves, Mrs. DuBois finally meets him and is highly impressed.  The president meets with the civil rights leader and each of the men are humbled by the presence of the other.
          Before Malcolm X leaves Ghana, he has a conversation with Ms. Angelou.  He reprimands her for her ignorance and naivety.  He explains that the things that make her upset can be attributed to the fact that she is closed minded and doesn’t respect each individual’s contribution to the betterment of Africans in America.  He explains that she would be most beneficial understanding how people can be served from many facets and encourages her to go back to her home in America.
As Angelou prepares for her transition, she crosses path with elders who identify her as a lost member of their tribe.  Ancestors had been run out of this village and captured into slavery.  Only a few children were left. The refugees were taken in by a nearby village, and when they became adults, they returned to their homeland to rebuild.  The elders believed that Angelou’s characteristics stemmed from their lineage.
Under the sun, before she left Ghana, Maya Angelou found everything she needed. The desire to be accepted by one community had finally occurred, but she realized, that all along, she was only looking to accept herself.  She had found a way to blame other people for the conditions around her rather than taking the responsibility to focus on her locus of control and have faith in other’s around her.
This book gave me healing and helped me to remember that the process of growing isn’t efficient in real time. Weakness must leave the body, and that is why we have to deal with pain. To see the wisdom that Angelou gained from the community of women, politicians, intellects and local community members reminded me of that home that one feels when they are with us of African descent.  Everyone, in their own way, was moving forward with their hands out to help family along the way.  Naturally, Maya was rejected and accepted simultaneously, which is symbolic of  the bitter sweet definition of life.  You win some and you lose some, but if you gain patience, you learn that you were never missing anything at all. 
In the perfect moments, Angelou was given what she needed.  From courage to confidence, from a job to advice from a legend, Angelou grew into herself, the same way that so many of us are doing now. We have this fear of being out of control.  We want badly to live in a world where pain doesn’t exists, but what one learns from this autobiography is that in time wisdom comes and your conscious will lead you as far as you have  ever  been capable of going.  Be still and be moved.  Read the book!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Goodbye. Again.

To lie with you here is to deny myself of my heart’s true desire: to be loved

Deprived of my soul’s truth once before, I offer my condolences as I can no longer lose sight of my future intentions with you any more

Shall I die of regret or live with ease is the question upon my night’s star

From afar, I shall remember your kind words, forward thinking, gentle touch and charismatic nature

Ever will the thoughts of your crown dwindle in my mind

Upon my wishes I hope there to be another knight whose charm surpasses yours

As your winds blow, I’ve encountered wisdom from the ancestors warning me to be free of the dream that shall be interrupted abruptly by reality

To live without consciousness of what really exists undeniably relinquishes freedom of peace

For the safety of one’s predictable manner loses its value when trampled with the consequences of unwitting desire

The challenge I have, to be womanly in my deeds and commit to the actions that will fulfill this deed, is the strength that I long for

To stay in this position is to buy land that never prospers for the lack of foundation built upon its soil

Options of alternative measures come infinitely but to live beneath what one wills is to live wanting

I’d cherish this moment more in the future if by chance I am granted the serenity to accept what will be from what was always wanted

If ever I were to have an heir I’d fully expect that she not relinquish her duly cause to the inferiority of settled comfort

Though unseen in near distant there have been mountains to rise where there once were plains

Believing otherwise is to live in fear of the potential that one has to create the existence that they wish to see within the suffering of our current conditions

I challenge the jewels of which I attain to be of example to that which otherwise relates to be nothing

For if I do not embark upon this challenge with the courage of mine own, then at what point do we reign over that which is known and conquer that which was always purposed to be

It has been recorded that at moments elders crossed paths with angels, forbidding them loss of memory and wisdom gained

Yet, upon the trying of the concept, soaring, each angel has returned to its onward position

I say, to you, as I bid farewell, that I will once have known some parts of your soul

As the piece of the puzzle that has no part in making the picture imprecise, I move forward with the element in my right hand

In the palm of my influence shall you be remembered, from a far

To have known you has been the pleasure of my soul’s affections

I must go now, for to lie with you here is to deny myself of my heart’s true desire: to be loved